Appreciation

So last night I finished watching this independent Bollywood movie called "We are family" it was a hard movie to get through. The whole premise of the movie is that the mother is dying and her ex-husband and girlfriend are trying to blend the family and take care of the mother.

I think that I cried half way through the movie. Not the kind of crying one does at the thought of something sad but hysterical cant catch your breath cry. I should have just stopped watching, I mean I knew she was going to die and everything would work out but I like to torture myself with that kind of stuff. I have no idea why, maybe because I have never had to experience that kind of pain before, maybe because I am terrified of dying and leaving Hunter alone in this world? Who knows really, maybe I am just sick in the head! Whatever the reason was I loved the movie and it made me appreciate my life a little more and hug my son a little tighter when I went to bed. Now I just have to get through today with swollen eyes and a puffy I have been up all night crying face.

The Beginning

We all have to start somewhere right? I think I will start right here. I am a Mother to an amazing little boy. A little boy that challenges me every day, sometimes in good ways and sometimes in the worst ways. I love it and can not picture my life any other way. I work full time, yes I have mommy guilt who doesn't?? Sometimes I let it get the best of me, sometimes I get the best of it. I am independent, more often then not I am to independent and drive people away with it. I'm working on it, actually I am not. You don't like it keep walking nothing to see here people. This makes me sound catty and yes I am, I have to be to those that need it. Really I am to caring and wear my heart on my sleeve its a flaw. This Blog thing is all new to me, my sister is doing the 365 blog and I said sounds cool maybe I will try it. So here I am. What will this blog be about? I have no clue but it might be fun to find out!